Woke up last Wednesday, turning 45. The number makes me feel officially middle aged, not a day I really wanted to "celebrate". Grateful for life- yes! Blessed beyond imagination, yes! Feeling a bit old these days, YES!!!
Husband was out of town, headed to spend the day with my 22 eight and nine year old students, blessed with a special delivery from dear friends (cake, breakfast, my favorite treats, flowers and balloons). It prompted my students to sing to me and it was so sweet!
After school, my exhausted feet were screaming for a pedicure, so I decided to drop my little one at home, call a dear friend to meet me and headed to the nail salon. Relaxing in the chair, enjoying the relaxation and I catch a glimpse of my boys with balloons. I whisper to my friend, " I think my boys are about to walk in." Shockingly it wasn't just my sweet boys- it was MY GIRL too! I couldn't figure out what was happening. Of course we both burst into tears with our," come by it honestly weepy gene", and hug the best hug I had experienced in weeks. Best pedicure I've ever had!
I must admit, I miss her terribly every day, and that day wasn't any different than any other. I didn't even feel extra sorry for myself that she wasn't going to be there, BUT the fact that she was, probably made it one of the best birthdays ever!!! No one knew (except my two sons who I still can't believe kept it a secret), not even her daddy, that she was driving home just for me!!
What a wonderful birthday dinner we had, a sad "see you later" early the next morning as I headed off for my sub job, and she headed out to make it to class, BUT having her home in her bed on MY birthday- greatest gift ever!
I am one blessed 45 year old momma!!
Monday, September 24, 2012
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Brotherly Love!
These little brothers sure miss their sissy! My 17 year old retrieved a Facebook picture of the two of them in a tight embrace when they were REALLY little, and posted it on his facebook wall mentioning how much he was missing her. It brings this mom lots of joy that my children love, value and appreciate each other. I can get so caught up in my selfish feelings of missing her so terribly that I get walloped in the gut when I see my boys so deeply affected by her move.
My little one has expressed that it is the hardest on him because we got her for 18 years and he only got her for 10, and he can't even remember most of those years.
We are all so excited as family weekend is next weekend and we can't wait to see her precious face, hug her neck and spend some time in her new world.
My baby has been exhausted and a little sick! :(
Isaiah 40:30-31 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles;they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
2 Corinthians
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made effect in weakness." Therefore I will boas all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Proverbs 22:6
Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.
So proud of the character and integrity she exhibits at a phase of life when children are bombarded with worldly choices.
Hebrews 11:6
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarded of those who diligently seek Him.
Isaiah 26:3
You will keep in perfect peace her whose mind is steadfast, because she trusts in you.
1Peter 1:8
Though you have not seen Him, you love Him; and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy!
Sure am missing being around that joyful personality!!!
Phillipians 2:13 It is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasures.
I KNOW that God is doing amazing things both in and through her. I am thankful He is the one in control!
My little one has expressed that it is the hardest on him because we got her for 18 years and he only got her for 10, and he can't even remember most of those years.
We are all so excited as family weekend is next weekend and we can't wait to see her precious face, hug her neck and spend some time in her new world.
My baby has been exhausted and a little sick! :(
Isaiah 40:30-31 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles;they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
2 Corinthians
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made effect in weakness." Therefore I will boas all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Proverbs 22:6
Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.
So proud of the character and integrity she exhibits at a phase of life when children are bombarded with worldly choices.
Hebrews 11:6
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarded of those who diligently seek Him.
Isaiah 26:3
You will keep in perfect peace her whose mind is steadfast, because she trusts in you.
1Peter 1:8
Though you have not seen Him, you love Him; and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy!
Sure am missing being around that joyful personality!!!
Phillipians 2:13 It is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasures.
I KNOW that God is doing amazing things both in and through her. I am thankful He is the one in control!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Surviving
Well, it has been over a week since she came home for Labor Day and of course left again. I can't express how fabulous it was to see her AND hug her precious neck. About the last hour of her drive, she called several times to report where she was. When she walked in the door, she was immediately in tears. I think she was just so happy to see us and it was the moment she realized she missed home. I am thankful she isn't homesick and unhappy while she is away, but happy to know she values "home". Our time was wonderful- just having her in her own bed was the best! She slept a lot (CLEARLY she isn't doing enough of that!), and we just enjoyed her prescence.
As much as I would have loved to just keep her home (my little one continually reminded her of the community college nearby), she seemed excited to head back. While I woke up that day with a pit in my stomach thinking about another "see you later", I was glad for her enthusiasm and excitement to get back and see the friends she missed. I remember vividly, the feeling of getting close to home AND the feeling of returning to school. Both were great, and that certainly is what I want for her!
Watching her drive out of our driveway was still brutal, and most of the day I was in a bit of a funk, but I do seem to feel a little better as a whole. In being honest, I do occasionally feel a punch in the gut of grief at least once a day. I think it is just the physical pain of missing her, and I do NOT always end up in tears which feels like progress.
I am so blessed to have a daughter who wants to include me in her life. I don't think there has been more than a day that goes by that she doesn't send me a picture of her with friends doing something fun. I even occasionally get a video clip of something she is seeing! Oh how it is my saving grace!!
Another wonderful thing is the little nuggets of God's word I send her daily, because I always get a response that allows me to hear fom her at the start of her day!!! I am SURVIVING and her wings seem to be working! THANK YOU, GOD!!!
(If you have any scriptures you think would be good to share, please post them in a comment- I would be thrilled!)
Here are some of the scriptures I have sent her in the past week and a half:
Psalm 34:7
The angel of the Lord encamped around those who fear Him, and He delivers them.
(The day she drove home)
Psalm 126:3
The Lord has done great things for us! We are glad!
(Celebrating her getting to come home, and all the wonderful collegiate experiences she is getting to have!)
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
(Fearful about a test)
Psalm 121:1-2
I will lift my eyes unto the hills, from where my help comes from. My help comes from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.
(a bit overwhelmed finding the balance of fun, rest and studying)
Exhaustion set in!! Isaiah 40-30-31. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
As much as I would have loved to just keep her home (my little one continually reminded her of the community college nearby), she seemed excited to head back. While I woke up that day with a pit in my stomach thinking about another "see you later", I was glad for her enthusiasm and excitement to get back and see the friends she missed. I remember vividly, the feeling of getting close to home AND the feeling of returning to school. Both were great, and that certainly is what I want for her!
Watching her drive out of our driveway was still brutal, and most of the day I was in a bit of a funk, but I do seem to feel a little better as a whole. In being honest, I do occasionally feel a punch in the gut of grief at least once a day. I think it is just the physical pain of missing her, and I do NOT always end up in tears which feels like progress.
I am so blessed to have a daughter who wants to include me in her life. I don't think there has been more than a day that goes by that she doesn't send me a picture of her with friends doing something fun. I even occasionally get a video clip of something she is seeing! Oh how it is my saving grace!!
Another wonderful thing is the little nuggets of God's word I send her daily, because I always get a response that allows me to hear fom her at the start of her day!!! I am SURVIVING and her wings seem to be working! THANK YOU, GOD!!!
(If you have any scriptures you think would be good to share, please post them in a comment- I would be thrilled!)
Here are some of the scriptures I have sent her in the past week and a half:
Psalm 34:7
The angel of the Lord encamped around those who fear Him, and He delivers them.
(The day she drove home)
Psalm 126:3
The Lord has done great things for us! We are glad!
(Celebrating her getting to come home, and all the wonderful collegiate experiences she is getting to have!)
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
(Fearful about a test)
Psalm 121:1-2
I will lift my eyes unto the hills, from where my help comes from. My help comes from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.
(a bit overwhelmed finding the balance of fun, rest and studying)
Exhaustion set in!! Isaiah 40-30-31. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Sweetest Thing....
Sweetest thing ever....my sweet girl playing "her song" - which is Taylor Swift's song for her little brother, NEVER GROW UP- for her little brother on the guitar and singing to him before he went to bed this evening. Listening from the other room blessed my heart so much. He has been so afraid that his sissy is going to turn into an adult and not want to hang out with him anymore. She is THE BEST big sister! She has made so much special time for her little brother that so desperately needed quality time with her this weekend while she has been home. Tomorrow's goodbye won't be easy, but I think it will help that she didn't appear to grow up too much for him, her first 3 weeks away.
What a gift it has been to have her home- everything just feels right in my world with her sleeping in her own bed (she has certainly done a lot of that as she seems exhausted!) and just having her here! I have even LOVED doing the mounds of laundry she brought home!
Just treasuring the minutes.....they go way to fast!
What a gift it has been to have her home- everything just feels right in my world with her sleeping in her own bed (she has certainly done a lot of that as she seems exhausted!) and just having her here! I have even LOVED doing the mounds of laundry she brought home!
Just treasuring the minutes.....they go way to fast!
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