15 days (who's counting? ME!)

15 days until we move our first born precious baby girl into her college dorm room a little over 3 hours away from home (ME)! It happens to be the same dorm I moved into 27 years ago, and my sister 21 years ago, and no, it hasn't been updated but will actually be torn down in May of 2013 after my daughter experiences all of her college first's under that roof that housed her mom and aunt- pretty cool! I couldn't be more excited about all that is ahead for her, BUT I am heartbroken for myself and how much I am going to miss the joy she brings to our house. There is a room in my house full of purchases from The Container Store, Target, Bed Bath and Beyond that we have been acquiring the past few weeks, between you and me, I wouldn't mind if it just stayed right there, cluttered and out of place. When I walk in that room, I know that it will all be moving 3 hours away with my "heart". Not a day goes by that the tears don't fall, often while just sitting in the middle of all the "stuff" (sometimes the ugly cry comes) and I know that the "River Lisa" in heaven is flowing strong! Boy, I am thankful my tears mean something to God because my husband and sons just look at me like I am a little crazy! (I know their rivers will flow pulling away on move in day as they are going to all miss her like crazy too). The college dorm "stuff", currently cluttering my pretty front room that is moving out in 15 days, causes me to reflect on the fact that no matter how physically ready we get, trusting my mothering and her wings feels a little risky. I pray daily that God covers me and fills in the gaps where I have had missteps, AND that HE is the one that helps her to soar- it is HIM I have to put my trust in! This blog is my attempt to journal our steps, document what I know in my heart will be God's goodness and faithfulness along with hopefully some humor to help me endure while I know the "River Lisa" will be flowing like never before!