Wanting that third baby all those years ago when my big kids were half grown created such an interesting family dynamic. I wouldn't change it for the world, but it never entered my mind that the little one would be left behind. It is heart wrenching to witness him saying goodbye to his beloved sissy. Their relationship is precious and such a sweet gift, but it is SO hard on him. His goodbye had to come last night because he leaves for school so early in the mornng. When they figured out on the calendar that she wouldn't return for 44 days, his personal heartbreak set in. Nothing like watching your little one cry himself to sleep, and wake up to crawl in his sister's bed and carefully give her ONE MORE kiss and snuggle. It is MY JOB to make this all better for him so I have concocted a plan to allow him to play hooky for a day and we will cruise up for the day to have lunch and hang out with her for a bit sometime in the next 22 days!! HE will certainly need that! It will be all about meeting HIS needs because 44 days is long for a 10 year old!! :) After all, it is my fault for birthing him and putting him in this difficult situation.
Her university has a fall break (lucky us!) with school resuming on Wednesday. Five days with her home was awesome! I am telling you, just having that girl asleep under the same roof and in HER bed feels like winning the lottery. Now, I have never won the lottery, but it must be a great feeling! I love the chatter and joy she brings to our house! It is just not even close to the same without her. My daily texting dialogues with her are wonderful, but hearing her voice and watching her eyes light up is so much better!
I am waiting for the day that it gets easier to say "see you later", but almost 2 months in..... No relief for this momma! The sad thing is, I will see her on Friday, in 3 days, but watching her drive out of my driveway this afternoon still felt like a rip in my heart. So, all of you that have gone before me on this journey... I am still waiting for it to get easier! When will it get easier?
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