"Has it Gotten Any Easier," You Ask

Someone asked me today, "has it gotten any easier?" I find myself really thinking about that question...

Yes, I don't burst into tears quite as often, but I still miss her so much it hurts.  I have altered my focus on the fact that she is healthy, happy and YES, HER WINGS SEEM TO BE WORKING pretty well. Oh how I Praise my God for that!   She seems to "need" me just enough to keep me "feeling needed" which helps this momma!

Sending her a scripture via text message daily also helps, as she always responds and that usually opens the window to a little chat about what she has ahead for the day.  I hope it feels as encouraging for her as it does for me.  One day, my plate was so full that I was delayed in getting a scripture to her, and she sent me a note that said, "no scripture today, mom?"  I was glad to know that she missed it and am thankful that God is using is word to bless her each day.

I know that I had dug my heels in on discovering and allowing a new normal to occur around here, but somehow it happened without me looking.  Dinner with the four remaining of us sitting at the kitchen table doesn't feel so strange any more, I don't holler her name up the stairs and feel the kick in the gut that "oh yeah, she isn't here", I don't look for her car to pull in, I don't assume she will be here to babysit my little one if need be (by the way, having to hire and pay a sitter again is a BUMMER!), I don't accidentally buy the special things from the grocery I use to keep around here for her, BUT
I must confess that I do occasionally, when no one is looking or around, head into her room, lay on her bed and have a good cry.

The new normal doesn't feel like it will ever feel NORMAL!

She sent ME this one!
Romans 12:12 Let your hope make you glad. Be patient in time of trouble and never stop praying.

Just a few verses from recently:

Psalms 37:5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act.

Proverbs 16:3 Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established.

Genesis 28:15  I am with you and will watch you over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land.

Psalm 29:11  The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.

Deuteronomy 31:8 The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

Hebrews 11:1  Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Psalm 16:8  I keep the Lord in mind always.  Because He is at my right hand, I will nto be shaken.

Proverbs 10:30  The righteous will never be uprooted.

Psalm 73: 25-26  Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you.  My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Phillipians 1:9-11  And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of God.